Question for you?

I want to start back up here but considering what's going on with me I may not be able to post a question everyday.  So I'm taking a vote here.  Would you all rather I wait until I can come back and post every day?  Or post a question whenever I can?  It's up to you since this is everyone's journal jar.

Please let me know either by leaving a comment or you can email me.

Love and miss you all so much,
Promise

Question 94 ~ Yards

Describe your yard as a child.  Did you help with yard work?

We moved around so much when I was young it would be tough to describe my yards.  However, I did have to help with rack the leafs and shoveling the snow. Usually racking turned into jumping through them and making more of a mess so we were told to get out of the way and my brothers would end up finishing it (we weren't dumb!) and shoveling turned into us taking to long and my brother's or step dad would end up doing it... once again proving we weren't dumb.

Wish we had grown up in the same place our whole childhood but oh well.
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Just to thank you all for your kind comments, prayers and wonderful emails, my mother's surgery went well.  Recovery is going fine and I'm home whew!

THANKS &
Much luv,
Promise

Sorry

                
The journal jar will be offline for a couple of day.  My mother is having surgery tomorrow and I am leaving in a bit to go be with her for the day and tonight to help her keep her mind off of it... also to be with her during (no they won't let me in the operating room those dang DR's!!) and probably tomorrow night to see her through her first 24 hours of recovery.  So I'll probably be back on Wed. 

Please say a little pray for her.  Although I know she will be fine prayers can't hurt.

Thanks.
Luv ya all...
Promise

question 93 ~ Advice

What is your advice to those younger than yourself?

Live each day to it's fullest.  Do not take people, places or experiences for granted.  Love the people you love even when they get on your nerves, to the fullest. Don't ever be ashamed to hug your parents.  If your mother is making you crazy, it's not your fault, just try and find even the tiniest of good in her and love that part of her.  If you don't like someone, either get to know them better, you just may find they could turn out to be your best friend... or just don't waste your time with them, life is too short.  Don't SMOKE.. it's not cool, it doesn't taste good, it WILL KILL YOU.  Always think before you do something.  Love is an emotion, it takes time to grow.  Physical attraction is not love.  If a man hits you once he will probably do it again and again so run.  I can't say that about women because I've never been in that situation but it's probably true too.  Always be honest.. you're going to have to eventually anyway, so why not be that way from the start.  Try to forgive, holding on to resentments only hurts yourself the person you are mad at has probably forgotten it and it's only taking up your own time.

But most importantly believe in yourself, trust your gut.  You can either be your best cheerleader in life or your own worst enemy.  Never tell yourself I could have done better, just do it better next time.... Life is just practice, mistakes happen, shake your head like an etch-er-sketch and go on.  Enjoy your time on Earth but know there HAS to be better things to come.

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Question 92 ~ Wash day?

Tell about a frustrating experience you have had on wash day with the washing machine, clothes, people,  etc and tell about the outcome.
                               

Wash day?  Is there such a thing as a wash day?  I wash everyday.  Okay this question just seemed strange to me at first.  But then I sort of changed the words in my head and it was simple. 

So a few years back I had been looking for my pink sock.  Now I'm a nutcase almost everyone knows this, but my socks need to match my outfit or at lest tie in to it somewhat. No, just wearing white socks all the time didn't cut it. Worse then this my hair ties HAD to match my socks... we won't go into this...I have since settled down.  I could not find that pink sock.  I had other pink socks but not that shade and  the obsession to find this one had already begun.  I turned the house upside-down looking.  So I changed the outfit (of coarse can't have the right socks the outfit needs to be changed, used to drive my husband crazy) So the next day I'm putting clothes in the washing and think... lots of socks go in here but never come out.  So I have this bright idea, I'm going to just slip that agitator part off and see if they are under there.  Well, needless to say they weren't, but one piece lead to another until I had turned the thing around and taken the back off and the whole machine was apart before I knew it. Parts of the washer all around the room. I'm now, sitting on the floor laughing.  I shouldn't be laughing I knew this, but I just didn't know how I had gotten myself into this mess.  I hear the door shut, I knew my husband was home.  He enters the room and  as I'm explaining this my laughter is now turning to tears.  I quietly say "can you fix it?"  RIGHT!!  We call a repair man... and the day he came out he surveys the room and says "it would be best for you just to buy a new washer"  My tears come again, not for the washer but for me, because this is going to mean my death, my husband will kill me.  The repair man turns to my husband and says "How did it get like this?"  So my husband briefly explains "she's looking for socks, takes it apart"  The repairman says to me "Oh hun, everyone knows it's the dryer that steals them"  My husband laughed for the first time in days and said "Don't give her any ideas".

Now to put some clarity on this I AM bipolar and I was a tad manic at the time.... I could write up a few of these stories that are now so funny but at the time were so awful and strange.... well I guess they are still strange.  But as I'm writing this I'm laughing my butt off.

I did get a new washer.  I got a new fridge that year too, not because I took it apart but because I sponge painted fish on it, and my husband did not like that!! opps.  But that's a whole another story.......
                      

+++I tried to post this question yesterday but I couldn't get into my journals.  I was having computer problems.  Sorry. 

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question 91 ~ If looks could kill

What did you look like as a child?

A lot like I look now, only younger... haha guess that was the easy answer huh?

Well, I was blonde green eyed as I am now.  Very skinny.  I had a pout, I was either pouting or laughing.  I had a temper (of coarse that went away you know lol)  I was the baby of the family and it showed in my expressions.  I will find a picture of myself as a child and post it when I have more time.  Because a picture is worth a thousand words.

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question 90 ~ Traits

What were your mother's best traits and which ones do you share with her?

Hard hard question, since I'm having such problems with my mother now.  I should correct that, I've always had problems with my mother, I am just now coming to realize them.  I was always told it was my fault but I am growing up and taking a look at things.  Owning my stuff and letting the rest go to her where they belong.

Okay I should answer this question.  My mothers <choke> good traits.  I know she has some, somewhere they got buried deep.  She is a fighter... keeps fighting and doesn't give up.  That is one thing I got from her.  (I'm trying to stay positive here which is hard).  She has an amazing imagination, she's a smart woman and she loves animals, I know a person that loves animals can't be all that bad.  Even if she has such a rotten side (okay okay I know best traits hummm..  She is a great cook, Is cooking a trait? ahhh this is a hard question for me, since MotherWar 5 hit.  I wish I had some neat stuff to say about her but I just don't.  She does care about others in her own way as long as it doesn't get IN her way.  She loves her husband, when he is doing what she wants him to do.  I'm sounding so bitter.  There I get my bitterness from my mother there is a trait I get from her. LMAO.  So there you have it Promise's bitter entry of mother traits.  Maybe someday I can come back and change my views here (I'm an optimistic woman with heart!)  During the typing of this entry someone posing as my mother called... I'm having a bad day, one of those "I wish bedtime would hurry up and get here" kind of days, she was a nice woman lol. So I'd like to add can sometimes be a loving person to the list of traits.  We had a good conversation.  The WHOLE thing did NOT revolve around her. She actually made me feel I wasn't totally crazy and never once did she call me worthless.  Hmmm. I wonder who that was that called me (hahaha).

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Question 89 ~ Father

What special things did you do with your father?

OUCH!!  Okay, if I want this to be an honest thing I will have to answer this question.  I still haven't answered the wedding question, and am not wanting to look back at that.  And here I am with a question I do not in any way want to face.

I have a father and a dad.  My father left when I was little.  That's not to say he didn't do anything with me... just not things I'd really want to write about.  He used to feed me shots of whiskey and some sort of pickled fish when we were over there. I think that was my first memory of him (other then sitting in the car while he was in the bar)  Then he molested me but those memories are just beginning to come back and I will save that for therapy.

As far as my step father goes, I didn't like him at first, didn't trust him.  So when I was at home all his attempts to get close to me failed.  I believe now I didn't trust him because of what my father was doing to me.  Then I remember hearing him telling my mother that he didn't think my father should see me anymore.  (not that he was seeing me on a regular basis anyway just when he saw fit)  I blocked so much out, not just the abuse but everything around it... even the good stuff.  I do remember my step dad playing with us and me fighting it.  Then one day things came to a head, we had a screaming match.  I told him I hated him, he would never be my father.  He looked relieved.  I guess being my father is something he didn't want to do.  He wanted to be my dad.  After I moved out we became close, he took me fishing a lot, took me ice fishing for the first time... I stood on the ice scared to death I was going to break threw.  It was fun.  He now defends me against my mother... not many people have the guts to do that.  I'm glad I gave him a chance.. I just wish I hadn't waited so long.  As for my bio father.. he's dead,  I am making progress in forgiving him... if I don't forgive him I'll never grow, the pain will never end and I'll never stop having problems because of it.  I still have a long way until I accomplish that but I'm on my way.

I can't believe I'm willing to share this, not sure if it's the best idea or not.  I usually like to keep this stuff private.  Maybe it's a good thing.... maybe not.

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Question 88 ~ School

Describe a typical school day in junior high school.

Aww, back to junior high.  Well, I'd usually get there early because I had to plan out my social life. We would all just walk around in the halls, messing around, planning parties, exchanging homework.  Junior high was just that to me, social.  I skipped school/classes whenever possible.  I really cared more about boys, parties and clothes.  I did learn lessons but most of the nonacademic kind.  I cared more about football games and dances then school work.  And it showed.  I didn't get the best grades. I had a very smart sister and I think that is why I passed classes, she would help me with assignments. 
So my typical day IN junior high was spent somewhere in town or at a friends house.  It's a miracle I can read and write (don't even mention my spelling ... I worship the person who invented spell check)

Looking back I wish I had pay more attention in school.  When my son brings homework he doesn't understand there are so many times even I don't understand it.  It's frustrating.  I'm not stupid in the least, I'm just not exactly book smart.  But I am who I am.

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Question 87 ~ Christmas

Tell about your own Christmas traditions.

Sometimes I swear I am repeating questions. I looked and didn't find this one but I remember answering it, maybe it was on a Sat six or some other question journal.

We usually stay home Christmas Eve (although last few years that has become the family time.. which sucks). Me and the kids would make homemade pizzas, finish the tree, drink eggnog, play games and open a couple of presents.  Then bed to wait for Santa <wink>  Christmas Day used to be when we would spend it with my Mom, dad, sister and brother etc.  Somehow that got switched up. So I usually make a small turkey dinner on Christmas for me and the kids and will invite some people over later.  In the evening we often go to the shelter and serve their Christmas meal and spend time with them. It's been a growing experience for me and the kids.  They learn the real meaning of Christmas, that it isn't all about presents and pretty trees.. it's about giving. 
This year will probably be different since my whole family isn't really talking to my mother... we'll see.

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Question 86

Describe your wedding day.

(I will be back to post my answer later on, I'm not feeling very well today, sorry about the missed question yesterday)

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Question 85 ~ Toys

Did you have a favorite toy as a child? Did it have a name?  What memories do you have?
                       
Memories of childhood again ugh.  I DO have a few of toys, a couple faded spotty ones and one that really stands out. There was berri Bear (I wrote about him before when I couldn't remember his name yet he was so important to me) I had this big doll that I loved until I left her in the wadding pool and her eyes turned yellow and everyone teased me about her, can't remember her name.  I do remember I turned on her like a snake because no one liked her anymore.

Then there was my little horse on wheels, he was fuzzy gray and white and I named him Honky Tonky.  (my parents listened to a lot of country music)  I loved him.  If I was sitting on him wheeling him around I was trying to carry him and dragging him around.  I was teased by my brothers but I didn't care.  He was my friend.  (I was a strange child)  I would talk to him as if he were real... in a way he was.  Then came the Promise betrayal.  I do not know which parent had put him in the cubbie whole in the wall one day I think it was because I was being bad.  But I had sort of learned to deal without him, well they were cleaning it out and said "do you want Honky Tonky anymore, or have you grown up?"  Me thinking OMG I can get Honky Tonky back.. but feeling I wanted to be a big girl said "no I don't need him anymore"  Out to the trash he went (he was in bad shape... but still.  I cried myself to sleep many many nights over it.  Thinking why didn't I just say I wanted him.  Poor Honky Tonky. hehehe  What a dork!

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What the heck...

Figured I'd pimp my own journal (my other journal :)

Check me out please

Promise.... Me

Bad promise!!!

& a big ....

To SINS...You have emailed me your link, once it was in my saved mail, then I made an entry and totally forgot.  You are NOT forgettable at all... so this time I'm just making your own entry.

So everyone check out SINS journal at:sour grapes

Question 84

Do you have a favorite author?  Who? Why?  Tell about a favorite book as a child, youth adult.

I have so many favorite authors.  Danielle Steel, Sandra Brown,  Dean Koontz, Stephen King.  They all have a different style of writing and different types of books.  I can't pick a favorite.  Which book I read normally depends on my mood at that time and whether I thirst for horror, mystery or romance. 
                  

As for favorite books.  I know I had a few favorite books as a child I loved "the Cat in the Hat".  There was this one book and I believe I still have it packed away somewhere in a box but I cannot remember the name.  Maybe someday when I'm ready I will be able to look into that box.  As a teen I hated to read, didn't have time for it, so any book I was forced to read was a hindrance so there was no favorite books. 
Now I love to read.  At this time my favorite book and this is usually the case if it's a good book, is the one I am reading. And I am currently reading Stephen King's Everything's Eventual.  It's 14 different stories in one book. Right now I'm on All That You Love Will Be Carried Away.  I just started this story so I do not know much about it.  His stories often give me the chills.  I love to read before I go to bed.  Yet, reading this book is often the reason I can't sleep.  I know it's just words on a page, but I always put myself into what I'm reading or watching.  So it's best to read stuff during the day.
                                          
I love books.  I can escape.  Just not too far.
               
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Welcome

Finally I'm getting to this...

Welcome to the new participants I am so glad you have all joined the journal jar. 

Nicki at  GOD WILLING AND THE CREEK DON'T RISE
Shelly at  XX Roxy Mama XX
Dawn at  Dawn's Disorderly Diary
Susan at  My Journal Jar  &   the world as i know it
Jenny at  The Loss of a loved one to MRSA
Jerseyjean333 No journal link
If I have missed anyone I am sorry I lost my saved mail.
I also want to note a "members" name and journal change. Pittsk615 is now SkunkyRip and her journal is now  New Beginnings 

Have a good night everyone!!

Want you all to know

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Just want you all to know that I've decided to not post questions on weekends.  Weekends are really tough around here.  I have visiting with Frankie.. and all kinds of crap (would love to use the SH word proceeded by the F word lol) going on.  So I am going to post Monday-Friday.  My hopes are that I will do new comer links on Saturday and spotlights on Sunday. 
Now since the computer crash I have lost almost all my saved emails (where I kept the newcomer comments I had saved) So if you have never been linked or welcomed PLEASE for me email me or comment here and let me know.  Also if you'd like me to check out your journal for spot light, email me with the link.

I love you all and hope all our readers come back soon.  I miss you all!!

Luv ya

 

Question 83 ~ Life Lesson

What is the greatest lesson in life you find to be true?

Today I was going to have a completely different answer to this question when I first pulled it.  But I just deleted the whole entry.  The first one was on being honest no matter what. 
But I just got back from a funeral.  And I learned a very important lesson from this.  Never turn your back on someone.  Never think they don't offer you anything, never take life for granted... yours or someone else's.  Don't think because someone annoys you that the rest of them didn't mean anything to you.  Because when they are gone, you may just find they meant more to you then you realize.  When they die you may suddenly remember little things they called about that helped you through a time in your life where you may not have had the courage to stand tall or even make it through.  You may remember something they did for you that at that moment meant nothing, but thinking back meant so much.  Never telling that person ... well it's too late to actually tell his physical body now, but I know he knows.  My last conversation with him was "if you want to be friends and just friends that's fine, but if you keep hitting on me, asking me out or touching me when I don't want to be touched I don't even want to speak to you or have you speak to me again ... so it's friends or nothing"  That was the last thing I said to him.. then I turned and walked away.  He came up to me about 15 minutes later and said "Friends it is then"  I said "hmmmkay"  Not really believing him.  My lesson is, always treat that moment like you may never see that person again, it MAY be your last moment with that person.  Don't leave things unsaid, don't stop believing in second chances.
RIP Pete!  I did care! And in my own screwed up way, I did love and care for you. 

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Question 82~ Birth order

How did you like being the oldest, youngest or middle child?  Did it have a particular advantage or disadvantage?

Well, I am the baby of the family.  I was well protected being the baby, however, I was also closely watched (still am)  Most of my family was very over protective of me, my parents still are.  My oldest brother was very very very over protective.  I used that to my advantage later in life. 

I did however "pay for their mistakes" in ways.  Like I couldn't do some things because they messed up.  I should correct that, I wasn't supposed to do them.  After everyone moved out and I was the last child at home, I became spoiled.  I got my own phone line, the clothes I wanted, was able to do things I hadn't been allowed to do.  I took advantage of that and went a bit wild.  That's a lie, I went totally wild.  I have to say since I don't know what it's like to be the oldest or middle child I think I had it the best (although that whole baby ... overprotective thing does make me crazy at times)  But I know my family loves me and I guess if I look at the good in it and not the hassle it's all okay.

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Just a little note:  My computer still isn't well, but I will do my best to post everyday.  If I can't open my word document I'll just post the question and return to answer it. 

Tomorrow I'll link the new participants (there are quite a few)

Nite.

Big sigh of relief

I've done some testing around and I can do just about everything again.  I do get kicked off line if I have more then one web page open or if I get an IM while doing anything other then staring at a blank screen (I never look at a blank screen so my away message must stay up until I figure out why that is happening)  So I'll come back tomorrow and begin posting questions. 
My question to you guys is, Do you want me to pull a week's worth (which is about what we missed), post them all tomorrow and let you answer them when you want/can or just start where we left off.  Let me know either in the comments part of you can email me at PromiseLuv372@aol.com

See you tomorrow, I'm going to bed now.  Niters.

GRRRRRR

I am having major computer problems.  I can't stay online if my life depended on it.  If I get an IM I instantly get booted.  If I pull up a web page same thing.  I haven't been able to access any of my journals and at first I thought it was AOL but I was wrong.

I am hoping my friend can fix this but he isn't sure since this computer has been on it's way out for awhile.  He is going to try.  So if I'm away for awhile it's because I'm without a computer.

I'm very sorry, hope to be back soon, and I hope you are all here when I get back. I know there have been a lot of missed days and for that I am sorry.  Hopefully things will be alright soon.

So due to technical difficulties I will be away ...

Sorry if there are spelling errors but I am unable to use any of my word or text program and I can't spell check.

(tried three times to put this entry in) I hope this time it works. 

Question 81 ~ Christmas

Describe the downtown area of your hometown at Christmas.

Now this confuses me, do they mean the town I grew up in or the town I live in now. 
Well, since we moved around so much when I was a kid I don't have just one lol.  So I'll go with the town I live in.
Christmas time... there are lights put up everywhere, there is a tree in the town they decorate and they hang some bells on the street lights.  That's about it.  It's not a big deal, or a wow look at that sort of thing.  This town gets more excited about Halloween.  Hmm means what? There are a lot of witches, ghosts and goblins here?

I normally don't even shop in this town.  High prices.  So I spend most of my "downtown" time in the next couple of towns over.

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To my Readers....

I need a little help with a project I'm working on.

I'm making a Journal jar for an anniversary gift.  It's there first anniversary and that's the "paper" anniversary so I thought it would be a good idea.  I haven't decided yet if I'm going to by to journals for them each to answer the questions or just one and they can do it together.

Anyway, I doubt I can come up with 365 questions about their first year of marriage, so I thought maybe I'd do a weekly one. Anyway, I have 29 questions already.  So if anyone has a thoughts or questions to put in please either leave it in the comments or you can email me.

Here are the questions I have so far.
What was your wedding day like?
Did anything out of the ordinary happen on your wedding day?
Tell about your honeymoon?
Describe a special event that happened during this first year.
What was your first fight about? How did you resolve it?
What's the biggest change in your relationship since the wedding?
What is the one thing that has changed the most about your husband/wife?
What is the biggest change you have seen in yourself?
Tell about the home you lived in when you first got married?
What was the greatest joy? the greatest sorrow?
What one thing did you expect to change since being married but it didn't?
What do you two do together now (hobbies, games, etc) for fun that you didn't do before getting married?
Do you spend more or less time together since getting married? How do you feel about that?
Who did most of the cooking in the first year?
Did you start any traditions?  What were they?
What was your most embarrassing moment?
Any memories associated with music?
Describe your typical Sundays?
What was the first purchase you made together as a married couple?
What was the worse wedding present?
Who was the worse behaved of your reception guests? Tell about it.
Where there any serious illnesses or injuries?
How did you become engaged?
Tell about any interesting or important visitors to your home
Tell about a frustrating experience you had with a car
What was the biggest compromise you had to make?
What was the color of your first home as man and wife?

Question 80

Describe the perfect spring day and activities done on that day.

I had a really really long day, so I'm going to come back and answer this tomorrow when I post tomorrow question.  I just don't want to skip many more days.

So if you want to see what I have to say about this stop back by.  Otherwise you know what to do, but in case you don't.  Put your answer in the comment section or in your journal and leave the link so we can read your answer.

Have a good night....

This answer posted 8/11:

Here in MN the winters seem to be getting longer and longer.  Fall is 3 days then winter is FOREVER!  So when spring comes I love it.  It also doesn't last long .. them summer hits. I have a feeling soon we will have two seasons, winter and summer.  But for now Spring IS my favorite time of year.  The first day the weather gets springish, I open all my windows and clean!  I love spring cleaning (I know I know!) but it's like a fresh start to life where everything is shiny, clean, and that stale smell of winter is gone!
After cleaning, it's time to go for a nice long walk.  Oh I love that first spring walk.  Just being outside without a heavy coat and those ugly boots (really my boots are cute but by the end of winter I hate them) I love seeing the birds celebrating the weather, going up to the lake and seeing most of the ice gone, knowing soon I can swim.  The smell of spring is wonderful... but then comes the rain and I go to sleep lol.  So my perfect spring day is mostly the cleaning and airing out. And knowing the winter depression is lifting. I'm an odd one!

Question 79 ~ Another favorite...

Tell about a favorite Aunt.

I loved all my aunts, I have faint memories of my aunt Jenny.  She died when I was a kid.  My Aunt Dorothy would probably be my favorite since I got to know her most.  She was a bold, vociferous, funny, loving .. in your face kind of woman.  She said what she meant and meant what she said.  Some people found her to be harsh.  She told me things other's were afraid to say. Like "you're acting like a spoiled brat"
She had breast cancer and had a double mastectomy.  Once at a family reunion she jumped up to catch a ball and her false breast fell out.  Without missing a beat she scooped down and picked it up and said "See I don't only drop balls"  She had a way about her, nothing was going to beat her.  In the end we lost her to cancer.  It was such a loss to me. At her funeral I ran into the minister and he asked who she was to me, I said proudly my aunt.  He said "Then you know she's up in heaven right now.." Then he added "running the place"  The next Christmas I was writing Christmas cards and came across her on the list.  My heart broke all over again.  I don't think I ever told her what she meant to me.  Now  at times, I look up to the sky, KNOWING she knows how I'm feeling and just smile.  I know she's up there taking care of me.

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Question 78 ~ Where is your Peace?

What brings you the most peace and why?

A few things bring me peace.  My cat of coarse.  Just cuddling with him and listening to him purr.  Having all my children under my roof at the same time... I feel content and know they are all safe and well.  My room,  when I'm stressed or the world is overwhelming to me, I retreat into my room, it is cozy and MINE.
Prayer, That brings me the most peace.  I know no matter what I'm going through He is there.  He may not give me the answers right away or the answers I want but eventually the answers do come.. it's when I fight it that I'm in the most turmoil.

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Back

I'm back and completely behind.  When I signed on, I had 628 emails. OUCH!  So, I'm going to try and catch up reading the comments here and other journals I read.  I'll get this going again on Monday.
Luv,
Promise

Question 77 ~ When we were....

What was your favorite thing to do with your family when you were young?

At first I really thought, with my scattered and incomplete memories I wouldn't really be able to come up with much.  Then as I sat here thinking back, lots of things came into my mind. Of coarse that surprised me.  Maybe this journal jar plus having to go over stuff with my family is helping bring back some of those memories I blocked.  I had to block the bad, I think the good just got in the way and ended up hidden too.

I remember a few things we did as a family, which I have to say we didn't often do that much all together.  It was mainly my sister and I playing together.  But we did play games together every so often as a family.  I remember one monopoly game lasting days, we would have to quit for the night and go back and start again the next day.  I don't know who many days I just remember it being the never ending game.  It was fun.  We played cards also.  I didn't know many games and my favorite was war, so my sister mainly got stuck playing that with me. 
                
I loved when we would go to carnivals (hmm no wonder I ended up working and "playing" there in my adult life lol)  My mother never liked to go on rides but that was okay, after all we needed someone to hold all our crap right? haha 
                

I also liked when we went on picnics, we did that more as we got older but I remember a few fun ones, where my father didn't interfere too much. 

                                         
My favorite thing of all was when we would all gather in the kitchen and make home made pizzas.  My brother had learned how to make them in school (a class I think he took to meet girls lol)  but it became sort of tradition.  It was so much fun all laughing and having fun and then of coarse eating great pizza. I now do that with my own children, and it's so much fun.  We used to do it every Halloween, but then it was rushed so we did it on Christmas Eve... normally it was just me and the kids on that night (big family thing was Christmas Day) But eventually that changed and we now do it whenever the mood hits us.  It's a wonderful bonding experience then and now.  There wasn't much laughing when I was young.  Partly because of my behavior but mostly because of my bio-father.  So thinking back to this laughter makes me smile.  I think I'll try and dig deeper to the good times.

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Tomorrow will be the journal jar spotlight and I will link the new members at that time also. 

Question 76 ~ Personality traits

What personality traits do you admire the most?

One half hour before it's "legal" Thursday lol.. I'm getting the question in as promised whew.  Well, guess if you're on the East coast I'm late.

My answer:  Honesty, loyalty, Truthfulness (nope not exactly the same as honesty to me) Loving unconditionally. Not being judgmental. I think most important to me is being yourself... not allowing other's to change who you are.

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New member links tomorrow.

Sorry

Sorry I didn't post in the last couple of days, haven't been feeling well.  I'll be back up and running tomorrow.  I ....

Spotlight

My 2 Cents
Just One Girls Head Noise|
DIAMONDS ON THE SOLES OF HER SHOES
 

Today I'm spotlighting a couple of journals.  No question as people can probably use another day to get caught up.

So if you're are caught up you could check out these journals.

I've been reading  My 2 Cents and  Just One Girls Head Noise since I started journaling. I just started reading  DIAMONDS ON THE SOLES OF HER SHOES .

All three of these journals are great and about life.  They each bring so much to my life.

PAM is going through a lot right now and needs a lot of support, JAVEN is a wonderful caring woman whom I've come to be very good friends with.  MARSHA, although I don't know her very well yet, I am getting to know she is a great woman with a wonderful sense of humor.  All these women have come to mean a lot to me, through their journals and emails.  What a wonderful thing the internet is,  I wouldn't have gotten to know so many fantastic people.

I hope you stop by and check these journals out.. you might like them as much as I do.

Have a great night....
Promise

 

Today is....

                  

Today seems like the perfect day to do a catch up day.  We have a few people that just joined us and a few that have been trying to catch up for a while.  So I'll use today to try and get to everyone's new journals and the ones I haven't been able to get to yet.

Hope you enjoy your day.
Luv,
Promise

Question 75 ~ Sing it loud!

Tell the words of a song from your childhood and describe any memories it holds for you.

When I first pulled this question out, I couldn't think of anything.  Then I remembered a song my mother used to sing to me.  One of the few loving moments of my childhood.  I couldn't really remember the words though or if it was a real song.  So of coarse I had to call my mother.  I asked her she said she couldn't remember it.  I wasn't sure if she couldn't remember singing any song or just the song.  I told her I remember something about "where are you going" She did remember singing this song to me, but couldn't remember what the song was or the words.
She eventually called me back and told it this story.
The song went something like
"Where are you going my little one.. pretty one.. Where have you been?"  She said she started singing that song to me before I could really talk and I would go la la la la after she paused (see I was already musically inclined :)  Then she said I eventually started singing the song with her.  I looked lyrics up and I can't find anything that went as she said... there is a song that has some of the words in it called "Turn around"  She said she sort of made the song up as she went along, so she probably put more then one song together.  It's a happy memory.. it gives me a warm feeling.  It also frustrates me because I can't remember the words..
Once again this journal jar has started another nice conversation with my mother, We don't have a lot of them lately.  So I cherish the ones we do.  We ended up talking for a long time about when I was little.  Then I remembered I had to ask her about the Grandparents working question.  So I'm off to add to that entry now, since I never did finish it.
                         

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We have a couple new Journal jar members... YAY!!
Hope you guys find this entertaining, enlightening and fun! 
Welcome......
Kelly aka winonagal29 at: Hart and Soul
Brittany aka Cherrywish100 at: Brittany's Journal Jar
Tricia aka AJsProudParents at: -*-Tricia's Journal Jar-*-

Question 74 ~ Christmas Tree

Describe getting a Christmas tree with your family.  How did you decorate it?  When did you put it up?

When I was young I really don't remember where we got our Christmas trees or how.  I think a few times my brother's actually went out and cut them down somewhere.  Yet, it's not a clear memory.  I do remember my Mom being a perfectionist when it came to decorating it.  Me and my sister weren't allowed to touch most of the decorations.  She would save a few of the plastic or crappie ones for us to put on at the end. 
When we starting using an artificial tree I know she put it up just after Thanksgiving.  I do remember some years with the real trees she would do it Christmas Eve day or Christmas Eve. 
I really wish I had better memories ... Sometimes days after I write an entry memories do come to me and I add them to the paper copy of this journal jar.  That doesn't happen very often though.

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Welcome to Meagan aka playettemeg918 at ~*Life Of Meagan*~

Question 73 ~ Ages

What was your favorite age so far and why?

This is a hard question.  I always seem to think that my last year was always the best... maybe because I am not liking getting older.  So what once was seems to always be better.  If I had to pick an age I'd say 21.  I already had my first child, but I still felt childlike myself.  I was in-between not exactly a grownup yet not a child.  Guess most people don't like that.. for me I could still do childish things and people would say "well she's only 21" at the same time when I wanted to I could act like an adult.  It was a fun year.  All my early twenties were.  My favorite saying is "I'm old enough to know better, but young enough to still do it"

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To our new participants....
Bernadette aka quartrlyfecrysis at: ...And then some
Cassie aka Sexyg002 at:Cassie's Journal Jar
Kathi aka kdwsunshine at: Kathi's Journal Jar
Jamilyn aka Jamie24601 at: Quiz Me:  Jamilyn's Quiz Central
hope you enjoy the journal jar and get as much out of it as I have.  It's a learning experience so far.

Also welcome back to Kell!! Reflections

Welcome graphic comes from a graphic group I am in.. If you are interested in joining that group email me or the owner of the group  pspcrazedkell@aol.com

question 72 ~ School dayz

Describe a typical day in high school.

I don't think I had a typical day.  I skipped a lot and when I was there, it was more about being social then learning.  I had a "good time" in high school, just didn't get good grades.

When I would show up, I would go get there about 1/2 hour before school started so I could plan my evening.  I paid little attention in class and often go into trouble.  I think my school file was really fat with dress code violations.  I spent a lot of time in ISS (in school suspension)  It was in high school that my Bipolar became worse.  I began to get high before school just to try and be calmer...  Somehow I got through it all.  I don't have "if I could go back I'd do this different" feelings I firmly believe I had to go through what I did to be me now.
                              

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Look at these!!!

So today is Spotlight day!

I am spotlighting (pimping if you will) a couple of journals.

Most of you probably read Dorn's journal, but I figure if I can share it with even a couple of people that don't that would be great.  I've read Dorn's journal since I came to J-land.  She is an amazing woman!  She writes about her real life stuff, shares her day to day things, yet they don't seem day to day because she is so funny.  I always have a smile on my face after reading her journal.  She also has a gift at writing.  I love the way she writes.  So if you haven't been to her journal stop by, but be prepared to be there for a while, once you start reading her entries it's hard to stop.  Here's her link:
DUST BUNNY CLUB OF NORTH AMERICA


I am a HUGE big brother fan so when I found this journal I was soooo happy.  Jackie's  journal is all about Big Brother.  She gives us reports on the live feeds (which I love because I can't get the live feeds) Sometimes she posts the cam shots which is cool.  Jackie takes a lot of time and effort to make sure BB6 fans are up to date on what's going on in the house.  She also has some great links to other BB6 sites.  So if you are a Big Brother fan, or just curious about what goes on in the house when they aren't on TV stop by:  'Big Brother 6' Live Feed Reports and More   
I love that journal

Thanks for allowing me to pimp these journals, and thanks to you both for writing your journals, I look forward to every entry you both write.

I hope you like them as much as I do.

DUST BUNNY CLUB OF NORTH AMERICA

'Big Brother 6' Live Feed Reports and More
                                    

Question 71 ~ Here comes the bride

Describe your wedding.  Who was n it?  What did everyone wear?
            
I have been married more then once.  I did however only have one "big" church wedding so I think I'll answer this question about that one .. and only that one.

I was young just out of high school and moved in with him.  He had asked me to marry him and we were engaged and set the date for July.  However, I got pregnant so we moved the wedding to March.  My sister was my maid of honor, his sisters were the bridesmaids.  At the time I liked blue (I do not anymore, no it has nothing to do with the marriage being hell)  So they wore blue.  I look back at the pictures and wonder why I went with those dresses YUK. HAHA  My mother (who is a very controlling woman) planned most of it.  When I said something I wanted it just couldn't be done.  We fought about the colors, the dresses, the food, the band.  She of coarse got her way.  I remember meeting with the caterer and my mom wanted baked potatoes and these meatballs.. I was upset.  Baked potatoes wrapped in tin foil TACKY!!  The meatballs were something I really couldn't care less about.  When we had our final meeting with her, I can't remember what it was my mother and I were fighting about then but she got her way.  On the way home she said "well at least you got your meatballs" OY VEY!!  Anyway, I remember the morning of the wedding (I had spent the night at my mother's) and the neighbor came over to bring me a gift.. lamps she didn't want to bring to the church.  She asked me "are you nervous"?  My mother says very loudly "HER?? ME!!!"  The lady said "oh are you getting married too?"  HAHA  That is my mother's favorite saying "YOU?? ME!!"  So I should have known then what problems I would have with my mother.  She made the day revolve around her.  Which I just tried to ignore.  It was a nice wedding, would have been better if I wasn't the bride and had all that pressure on me.  But the pictures looked nice.

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Welcome

                                      Tag made by: Kell (thank you!!)

I just wanted to do a welcome entry.  I've been sort of letting the new comer's list add up and figured I'd make a separate entry for them.

So welcome to all of you, I hope you enjoy the journal jar.  I will try and be more consistent with the questions, my life as been so full lately.  It's a good/bad sort of thing.

New:
Celeste aka gdireneoe at:  the dailies
Ashley aka ncarolinasangel at:  ~!~My Thoughts & Feelings~!~
Anna aka catannamals at:  Anna Avenue
Deb aka debbted at:  Sassys Second Word
Tessa aka callnti at:  Single Mom of Two Munchkins
Maria aka curyvyanglintexas at:  Heartfelt Expressions
asianchick9990 at:  Almost Definately Me
Adrienne aka Southpolex91 ~ No journal link

I have enjoyed all of these journals.

Question 70 ~ Vacations

Where do you like to vacation and why?

My favorite (mini) vacations are just staying in hotels. lol I love staying in hotels, not having to make the bed, not much to do just going to the pool, hot tubs etc.  Just hanging out.  No cooking, cleaning or phones (well there is a phone but not many people call when I'm gone)  Doesn't matter where I go (which hotel which city).  Now the little hotel getaways are tied with any lake.  I love being at the lake... swimming, bonfires, watching the sun set, even fishing.  My favorite time is in the morning before people are up and about, sitting on the dock, looking at the lake drinking my coffee and listening to the loons.  I've enjoyed New York and Vegas even California, but those kinds of vacations are always hustle and chaos.  I love the peacefulness camping much better.  I don't feel like I need a vacation after getting back.

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To my readers

I am so sorry I have been away.  LOTS of stuff going on with me right now.  I was going to post a question EVERYDAY this week.  But My crazy life has once again interfered.  The rest of my week looks less full. So Tomorrow I will make it up to you, we'll have a question, a journal spotlight, and I'll link you all to the new comers.  I'm going to make tomorrow my computer day.. to heck with the rest! ;)  I have so much JJ reading to catch up ... So until tomorrow, please have a good day.  And say a little prayer that these Dr's of mine KNOW what they are doing!!
LUV YA ALL.....

                    from Kell

Question 69

Did you have a bicycle and what was it like?   Tell about riding it.  Where did you go?

 I loved my bike, I got a new one when I was 8 maybe 9. I don't remember much about what it actually looked like.  Other then it was new.  Not one my sister had had.  I loved riding .. I would just go for hours.  Wind in my hair, freedom.
I don't even remember what happened to that one.  But when I was in jr. high school I had gotten another new one .. woohoo a ten speed.  I remember the day we went to buy it. I was not the best teenager.  Partied, hung with people I wasn't supposed to, so it really surprised me when my mom said they were buying me a new bike.  Funny how this one memory stands out in my mind.  We were at the store looking at the bikes when my mom discovered the hickey I had been hiding for days.  She yells in the store, loud enough for everyone to hear.  "What is that on your neck"  I was so embarrassed.  They did buy me the bike .. which of coarse meant I could go hang out with Hickey boy... but it meant more then just that to me.. It meant once again I was free.  I could once again go for long rides, just to feel the wind.

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Question 68

Do you like to go to the symphony, the opera, the theater?  What have you seen and enjoyed the most as far as productions go?

Well, I have never been to the opera (never will go either)  or the symphony ... although I'm more open to that.  I've seen a couple plays.  I enjoyed all I attended.  In all honesty I really enjoy my niece's high school plays the best.  Maybe because they are budding actors/actresses.  I love to watch her perform.  She's talented already.  She amazes me.  So although those aren't big productions.  They are the ones I like the best.
Now if we talk  concerts I'm all over that!

** You know the drill... you can answer in the comment sections, or your own journal.  If you are answering in your own journal please link your entry below so everyone can  enjoy your writing! If you're new to the journal jar please let us know that also! **

We have a few new people and I'll post a welcome and links later. 

Hope you all had a happy fourth!

Holiday

Afternoon everyone...

The journal jar will be closed for the holiday weekend.  A lot of people will be out of town and I have lots to do, so I thought I'd post again on the 5th.  We also have a few new members that are trying very hard to catch up. 

Have a safe and fun fourth.

                  

Luv,
Promise

Question 67 ~ Fathers

Did you and your father share any interests?  Tell about your relationship with him.

Great, I really can't answer this question.  In all honesty my father was a drunk and did horrible things ... I am bowing out of this question.  Maybe someday I can write about him... but I don't think I ever will (at least not in a public setting)

** You know the drill... you can answer in the comment sections, or your own journal.  If you are answering in your own journal please link your entry below so everyone can  enjoy your writing! If you're new to the journal jar please let us know that also! **


PS.  I lost the email from someone who had requested to be a journal jar spotlight journal.  So would the person that emailed me please send me a link again... I can't even remember who it was.  My memory is shot!

Question 66 ~ Holiday

What is your favorite holiday and how do you celebrate it?

When this subject comes up (and oddly enough it does very often)  most people say Christmas.  Not for me Christmas has become too commercialized and lost the true meaning... it is also causing me major stress, beginning around Oct.  Although I love Christmas and the decorating, having to buy presents for everyone and their mailman is a hardship.... I love giving, but the cost is crazy.  So I stress. 
Having said that my favorite holiday is Halloween!  Going door to door and getting chocolate, come on what can be better then that!  hehe.  I love dressing up and just being whatever I want for the day.  It's the day I can wear odd things and no one looks twice (even if it's one of my everyday outfits!) I love the smell of pumpkins, I love the feel of the goo in the pumpkins when you're cleaning them.. Yeah, I have been told I'm odd.  I like my kids and I to dress up in themes.  One year my son was a vampire and everyone else were his victims.. We all made ourselves look half dead and had bite marks on our necks.  I was a bitten prom queen.  We have a blast.  Staying out late, running across yards, talking to people we hardly know, having strangers take our pictures. 
Then coming home and playing games and eating pizza.  I usually make sloppy Joe's or hot-dogs before we go out.. but we are always hungry when we get back and order pizza. 
It's just a holiday where I can have fun with the kids and not have all the stress of making it right.  If Halloween goes wrong... well.. then we can patch it up!  There is no patching up the other holidays around my mother!!

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Welcome to Kelly aka happysunshien you can visit her journal at: Kelly's Journal Jar

Question 66 ~ College

Since my life as calmed down a bit... not a lot but enough now so I can probably concentrate on the Journal jar.  I'm back to posting questions.  Things aren't all rosey but when are they.  At least now my mind is a little more focused.  So lets begin again, and thank you all for waiting and the all the support you've given me.

Did you go to any college or technical training?  Where?  what did you study?

Right after high school I took a coarse at the technical college in our town,  I studied to be a Medical secretary.  My dream was to take some law classes, sign language, and Spanish, So I would be a very sought after secretary... that didn't happen.  I got married soon after and had a baby. 
Years later I began to take paralegal classes.  I loved it, however, my funding was pulled so I was only able to complete one year.  I hope someday I can go back... 

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I know of two new members since I've been gone.. if I have missed someone please let me know...
Welcome to Ms O at:   Miss O's Soapbox
and dshelestraci at:  My life as a transplanted Yankee

Spotlight

I just want you all to know that I haven't continued with the questions because I'm unsure how things will be going.  A lot will be answered in the next few days for me... I will hope to continue then.  I don't want to keep starting and stopping.

I did want to throw in a journal jar spotlight....
                                              
Today it shines on Heather and Hadon:

Heather  is amazing....I love this girl.  She too is having her own struggles yet she is always supportive of others (like very many people lately)  Her journal is one of courage, growth and humor.  She has great audio entries and has even sang some on them.  She has an amazing voice.  So  Heather ... I hope you have your shades on because the light is on you.
Check out her journal at:  A Second Chance

Hadon:  I've been reading his journal for a while now.  He is such a talented writer.  I'm in awe of this man's writing.  He puts things in words that have been in my head unable to come out.  When I read his journal I always leave there with my heart full.  Not only is  Hadon  a great writer but he is  also a very caring and supportive friend. 
You can check out his journal here:  The Hadonfield Myers Experience

I love both these journals!!

         Happy
                 Father's
                       Day
To the journal jar fathers.  Hope this day is filled with love.

This isn't a journal jar question so don't feel you have to participate....

In one sentence what would you say to your dad if she was reading right now?

>>>> Dad, Thank you for your patience, without you stepping up, I wouldn't be who I am today!

I won't comment on what I would say to my Biological father :)

Please

Hey all, 
Please know that question 66 in the journaler's journal who suddenly decided to take over the journal jar (who did so without checking with me) is NOT the next question.. as most of you already know there was a question like that a few questions back.  She does not have the jar, she is making questions up.  I do not know why anyone would want to do this.

I do wish to have the journal to come back to.  But right now I need to work things out in my life and I need everyone's understanding.

If she was just asking questions  and not saying Journal jar quesiton 66 I would pay no attention to it other then to post to her.  I do not want my new readers to get the two confused.

I'm sorry I'm away.  But if I were to try to do this I would be missing days at a time not consistant.  That isn't far to you all....

Also if newcomers want to catch up it's a win win situation.

Luv,
Promise

Message

I am very sorry to have to do this, but right now things in my personal life have reached  a total crisis situation.  I am not sure when I will be back to post.  I'll still be online just not doing this right now. 
I can send out an email to those who do not read my private journal and would like to know what's going on.  I do not want to post it publicly.  So if you want leave a comment and I will send out an email.

I'm sorry and hope to be back soon.

Luv,
Promise

question 64 ~ The teenage years

What do you remember most about being a teenager?

My teenage years were the point of change for me.  I went from a sometimes difficult but mostly willing to please child.  I mean I had my times when I was a brat.. but I always felt bad about it.
My teenage years were different.  I did whatever I felt like doing.. drinking, smoking, sex.. etc.  Not caring who I hurt, actually I don't believe I thought I was hurting anyone.  It was my ME ME ME years.  It was also when I experienced mania for the first time.  I was out of control, yet I thought everything was fine.  I wore out everyone around me (family)  they eventually threw their hands up.. until years later when I began to see what I was doing.  After my first baby and then my marriage. I finally realized something was so wrong with me. 
I know I had to go through all that stuff to be who I am now.  The pain I was in doesn't really give me a second thought.. however, the pain I put other's through does.  I have made amends for most of it.  I know I am forgiven... but I still wonder. 
So what I remember most about my teen years was I was a devil! 

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Welcome to our newest participant
Emily aka Therealslimemmy at  Emily's Purple Pages