Thursday, March 31, 2005

question 27 ~ World event

What do you feel has been the most significant world event that has taken place during your lifetime and why?

This has taken me a bit to answer, not because I don't know which event I want to write about, but because it's tough to write about.  I would say 911.. which lead to the war in Iraq.  So both would be together in my mind.  Why?  I probably don't have to answer that part of the question, but I will.  I feel that they have both effected and/or changed everyone's life in one way or another.  Large or small.  The world seems to be more suspicious, more afraid, more dark since 911.  Our children live in a time when they don't even know what will happen to them next.  If we used to worry about the future, it's now greatly magnified.  I lost a good friend who was a fire fighter during 911.  I have lost two friends in the war. I know a lot of people have... or they have family or friends over there.  No matter if you are "for" or against the war, it's everywhere.  I don't think a day can go by without tragedy related to this whole thing.  I know there have been other "events" in my lifetime, but these two are the ones that changed everything to me.  Things will never be the same.
                  


I think today would be a good day to pray for our men and women over there and their families.  Also the families of our lost soldiers!

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Baabyblueyes at 
Raggedy Ann in a Barbie doll world
Tarah at  Uniquely Myself

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Links and such

Well, I figured since we had so many new readers I'd post the links to all the questions so far so it's easier for everyone to get around.

First question
Question 2 - Games children play
Question 3 - flowers
Question 4
Question 5 - scouts anyone?
Question 6 ~ life with others
Question 7 ~ all alone!
Question 8 ~ Hope and dreams
Question 9 ~ Talk to me
Question 10 ~ let is snow!
Question 11 ~ Baby you can drive my car!
Question 12 ~ Attention sports fans!
Question 13 ~ 911!
Question 14 - Precious belongings
Question 15 - Our parents went to.....?
Question 16.... Hanging out.
Question 17 ~ Picnics!
Questions 18 ~ Just a word
Question 19 ~ Weddings
Question 20
Question 21 ~ Trick or treat!
Question 22 Sweet childern?!
Question 23 ~ Marriage AGAIN?
Question 24 ~ Car trouble?
Question 25~ Our grandparents
Question 26 ~ Downtown (feel like singing hehe)


Welcome to these new particapants!!
Gailmb at  Classy of 68
Sandra at 
Life Is Full Of Surprises

Mommysquiettime at 
Red Flannel Pajamas

Tammy at 
thoughts of the day.......

diewise at 
Back 2 Basic

adlessor at 
A Couple of Nomads

Shelt28 at 
My Life

Jude at 
My Way

Beth at 
Beth's Journal

Springsnymph at 
Another Country Heard From

Derak at 
Picture of the Day

Sorry no links for these yet they are just as important to this journal!
Vernae
mycatstiffedyou (love that screen name)
alphawoman
pnejo115
and our newest member who has been working her butt off too get to all the questions YAY Traci (telizabeth2002)
If I've forgotten anyone it's just because there are so many new people and I'm sorry.  Just speak up :)
Lastly.. if you have a link that you want in the side bar over there leave it here and I'll get them all in tomorrow.  Lots of updating and catch up reading to do.  Luv ya all!

Question 26 ~ Downtown (feel like singing hehe)

Describe a trip downtown as a youngster.

I have said this so many times, but my memories of childhood are so blurred and clouded, and some are just pure blocked.  So I have very few.  I have a fragment of a memory but then I call my mother.. and as she starts to fill me in on the missing parts, memories begin.  Part of me is thrilled with this, this is good for me.. it's opening up my childhood again.  It's also opening dark places I never wanted to return to, refused to in therapy.  Maybe it's time to allow the healing.  But I digress:
The trip downtown that I remember is sort of embarrassing... Most of my stories are, good thing embarrassment is a fun feeling for me, it's good to laugh at ourselves.  I was probably 3 and would not give up that baby bottle at night.  Yes, I'm telling you I loved the bottle!!  It would be longer yet till I gave up my blankie.  hehe.  Anyway, my mother decided to bribe me.  She told me we would go downtown and I could pick out anything I wanted but I had to trade the bottle for it.  A trip downtown!  Of coarse I was excited, not really thinking it meant no more bottle.  So we went from store to store, I do remember having that bottle in my hand, my mother had me bring it with because when I got the new toy the trade was going to happen.  She was picking out beautiful dolls and stuffed animals.  (we didn't have a lot of money but I think she was willing to give up her savings to get me away from that bottle)  I remember just being in awe of the whole thing, the stores, the people, the lights, and my mother offering me toys (FOR NO REASON! so I believed what can I say I was 3 and didn't think beyond the present moment.)  Finally I found him, my new friend.  He was this rubbery plastic bear... why I loved him so much is beyond me, but that was it I wanted him.  He was my new best friend.  I don't remember much about the trade. She said you can have him but you have to hand over the bottle.... It must not have been to traumatic.  I'm thinking even at 3 I was probably just trying to get on my mother's nerves by hanging on to that bottle anyway :).  I had that bear for years.  Even poked my sister in the eye with him (HE must have been mad at her) I don't have him anymore... I can't even remember his name, it was a silly name like yuddy or something.  But that was my trip downtown.  The day I gave up my bottle in front of a bunch of shoppers who probably wondered what a 3 year old was still doing with a bottle anyway.  I love going downtown, then and now.  Bright lights - big city!
                      
There are a lot of new journals and if I haven't gotten to yours yet, know that I'll be there.  Lots of catching up to do.  Thanks for participating!

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** Update:  Upon talking to my mother about this she said she couldn't really remember this.  She called me back about 5 minutes later to report her memory ISN'T going after all.  His name was Berry Bear lol.  I have to say these journal questions have me and my mom walking down memory lane a lot lately!

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Question 25~ Our grandparents



Did you have a close relationship with your grandparents?  Tell about them.

I didn't know my grandparents on my mother's side, they died before I was born.  I hear stories about them, my grandfather was the strong silent type where my grandmother was very short yet powerful.  She died when my mother was a teenager.  On my father's side (my bio father I will leave out the name calling because I'm editor's pick) I never knew that grandfather either.  My father's mother was a whole chapter in my therapy.  We were not allowed to call her grandma.. she came to visit us once in a great while.  I remember when I was about 11 she came and gave me a sliver dollar, I still have it.  I just wanted a grandmother though.  My Mom had a boyfriend for many years that we lived with.  His mother WAS my grandmother.  We used to go to her house in the summer, she taught me a lot.  She use to pray when she got up, before even eating a snack, and of coarse before bed.  She taught me spirituality... although those lessons didn't hit me until my adult years.  I loved her, she always knew what to say to a mixed up little girl who just wanted to be loved.  When my mother remarried (not that boyfriend)  I was very mad.  Although we kept in touch I was the all or nothing type of child so I let go.  My "step" dad's mother was sort of cold, took awhile to get close to her, I think part of it was me.  She couldn't replace Teresa... She wasn't trying to.  I remember she didn't like my dog and one night she was over at our house for the weekend and we had went out and she decided to stay home, she locked my dog in the bathroom the whole night... there was all these scratch marks on the inside of the bathroom door.  Of coarse she denied it to my mother HAHA.  After a while, I began to understand her, why she was "cold" why she was, as I thought "odd" she had a rough life... then she, without knowing it, began to teach me to be strong, to stand up for myself, to be real to myself.  When she died, I missed her more then I ever realized I would.  Odd how you just don't realize what you have until it's gone.


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I'd like to thank everyone who has started the journal jar while I was gone.  It's so exciting to have so many readers.  Another thing I didn't realize until now... people love this as much as I do.

Monday, March 28, 2005

I'm back

I can't tell you how happy I am to be back.  And also surprised I'm a weekly editors pick.  Sorry I left without warning... it couldn't be helped.  I will begin posting questions tomorrow.  I can't tell you how much the supportive emails I've recieved from some of you have meant to me.  And one of my wonderful reader's has help me beyond belief!  I love you all!

See you tomorrow!

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Question 24 ~ Car trouble?

Tell about a frustrating experience you have had with a car.

Now here's a question I can relate too.  I've had junk cars most of my life... The only problem is trying to pick just one.  My first car had no reverse. That was frustrating but I dealt with it.  So I think I'll talk about the one experience that just seemed to never end.
I had moved to Cali, and it just wasn't working out there.  I didn't own a car when I had finally decided to move back home.  I had a little money saved ... and I mean little so buying a car was going to be tricky. I looked for weeks.  Now I have to tell this part because it's just a funny part of this. One night I was getting so sick of looking for a car that would get us back to MN yet something we could afford.  Before I went to sleep that night I prayed, "Please help me find a car, and I don't even care if it's green anymore"  (I don't like the color green, I always said I would never own a green car, green is bad luck) The next morning I'm going through the paper and there is a new add for a car.. runs, only $500.  So I went to look at it. I pulled up and there sat this ugly GREEN car.  I talked the guy down to 350 and it was mine.  I took it as a sign.  HAHA  .. Before we even made it out of California, the back tire blew.  All right that's minor I'm thinking.  We stop, NO SPARE.. okay no problem, we make it to this garage, he is working on the tire and comes to us and tells us, "Well your rim is welded on, I can't get the tire off" Of coarse then there is more work involved and he has to break the thing off.  So he needs new bolts or whatever they are called.  It's Sunday everything is closed.  Well, he's a pretty cool guy and sneaks into the junk yard and gets them for us.  So we get to Reno.  The front tire blows RIGHT on the strip.  Try to find help there!!  So I'm walking down the strip hoping to find a place to buy fix-a-flat.  because we still have no spare and no jack.  Finally after walking and walking I find a store, get it, and get back to the car... we use the stuff and head on our way.  We make it one more day, and the radiator starts to over heat.  Seems the thing is plugged.  We stop again, we have to get it flushed.  Flushing turned into needing it replaced.  It seemed to have unplugged whatever was plugging the holes.  We get a hotel for the night and start out the next day.  We make it through the whole day without any problems ... I can just smell home!!  Then we start losing power, our lights are dimming.  Yep the alternator is going out.  ANOTHER stop.  At this point we are fighting.  It's been a long long trip.  With one bad thing after another.  After stopping for the night and getting that fixed the next morning... we are trying to start the car, STARTER!!  At this point I'm am actually beating the crap out of this car, kicking it, yelling at it.  My boyfriend (at the time) finally gets me in the car.  We make it to Iowa and we are frustrated, tired, out of money, and let me tell you hating each other AND that car.  We have people wire us money and we get a room for the night.  In the morning.. No, not more car problems.  My mama cat takes off .. leaving her 8 babies behind.  Yes, we were traveling with a mother and 8 babies.  I'm crying saying I'm not leaving until she comes back.  Well, we looked for about an hour and my boyfriend says "you know we are very close to home... shouldn't we get there before the car falls apart?"  We head home.  What finally happened to that car?  Transmission went out  but we were already home safe.  I'll tell you, NEVER a green car again!!

                                          



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Also Courtenay has a new link check her out at 
COURTENAY'S CANISTER

 

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Question 23 ~ Marriage AGAIN?

How do you feel about Marriage?

What a question for right now! haha.
Well, I've been married a few times. And I've learned a lot from a few of those.  I'd say you have to get married for the RIGHT reasons (whatever they are)  My first marriage I learned, not to get married too young.  Our hearts and minds don't really go together when you're 18...I didn't really know what I wanted and as I "grew up" we grew apart.  Marriage two I learned, that even if you THINK you know someone getting married can change them (I think it changes everyone to a degree) but this guy went phsyco.  We lived together for a year before we married.  He hit me for the first time on our wedding night.  So you can't judge a book by the cover.  Also I learned Do NOT GET MARRIED while you are drunk!  You may like the wedding, but what comes after is LIFE and getting married because you've been drinking and it sounds like such a "cool" idea is not the way to start a life.  I do know marriage is sacred and although I've been married "so many" times... if I do marry again it will be because he is the person I'm supposed to be with.  I think I'll know when it's right ... I sure know when it's wrong. 
I like the idea of marriage in general (obviously or I wouldn't have tried it so many times)  but it has to be a two way street, there has to be not only love but faith, trust, respect and most important it has to be for each other... not ourselves.  A marriage is TWO becoming one.... yet staying individuals.  If I'm not willing to be all there is to marriage, then I'm not ready to be really married. 
Weddings Now I love them... Always a bride never a bridesmaid LOL kidding.
I guess over all, marriage is whatever a person makes it to be.  If you want marriage then your marriage will work.  I do think I gave up too easily at times.  Like throwing in the towel and running.  NOT good.  So we'll see where life takes me now, alone or together.
                
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New to journal jar!! 


Donnie  at My Little Journal Jar

Erica at EricaLynn: Shutterbabe Extraordinaire

Sugar at Disobeying the rules of convention..
(private)
Kendra at Motomom

Beckie at Beckie's Bright Beginnings

Sara at Animated Seasons

Monday, March 14, 2005

Catch up!!

Today I need a catch up day,  I have so many journals to read, emails, and of coarse the message board.  I'm behind on everything.  I have 249 emails YIKES so I hope no one minds a day without questions.  This time it's purely for me!

Hugs... have a great evening! 

 

If your journal jar journal is not linked over <<-----there please let me know so I can link.  Hopefully I'll get to all the new ones tonight.

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Question 22 Sweet childern?!

What did you do as a child to get in trouble with your parents and how did they handle it?

This is an awful question for me.  I know as a child I was hard to handle... always moody, stomping up the stairs, slamming my door.  I don't have too many memories of being very young. I know she use to spank us with wooden spoons... I CAN remember those OUCH!! I'm sure my bipolar was showing pretty early yet no one knew what to do. 
As a teenager... I would party, lie, stay out all night, run away.  I did some pretty awful things, and always blamed my mom.  She would ground me.  I hated being grounded it was almost the worst thing you could have done to me.  She would also take my phone away (yes spoiled had my own line) So I would be cut off from everyone.  Did it work?  I don't think so because as soon as it was over I'd be out doing my thing again.  I was a rotten girl.. rotten to them.  I look back at how I was and wonder how my mother ever made it through!!
                   

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Saturday, March 12, 2005

Question 21 ~ Trick or treat!

Did you celebrate Halloween as a child?  What costumes did you wear?

               Yes, we did.  I remember so many different costumes.  I was a princess for a few years in a row.  Of coarse I was a witch a lot.  I can't remember being to creative back then, we had a lot of those store bought ones with the plastic masks YUK.  I remember not being able to breath.  Of coarse I have gotten much more creative now, yes I still dress up.  I love Halloween!! 
One year I remember I was sick and couldn't go out .. I was very sad, but my sister being the loving sister (that at the time I didn't really believe she was) went out without me carrying two bags and telling everyone "my sister is sick can I get some candy for her."  She came home with candy for me.. and of coarse I was ungrateful because I was still upset about not going.  ohh I was a brat!

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Friday, March 11, 2005

Question 20

What do you think of TV and what is your favorite show?

I've never been a person who has to watch TV.  I like renting DVD's and there are some shows I just hate to miss.... But I have to say lately I've had the TV on a lot.  However, I've noticed that there sure are a lot of commercials now.  Seems at times more commercials then the actual show.  To me TV is usually something I turn on when I am bored.  Except of coarse for Dog the Bounty hunter and ER.  Those are my two favorite shows.  I do watch American Idol.. but probably won't watch it if/when Constantine is voted off :)                    
I guess I still prefer movies to TV.  Some nights when I have trouble sleeping I turn on the home shopping channel THAT always puts me to sleep.
                                         
Just want to say WELCOME to the new participants, I'm really behind in reading alerts.  I'll link you all when I get caught up.  It's good to be back and hoping this lasts!!  I've missed you all!

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Tuesday, March 8, 2005

Problems

    Having technical difficulties..... 
        

         But I'll be back soon!!
Love,
Promise

Monday, March 7, 2005

Question 19 ~ Weddings

Describe your mother's wedding dress.  What do you know about her wedding?

It's questions like this I want to put back in the jar and pull a new one out lol.  But I don't.  Sigh.  So my mother's wedding dressES.  My mother has been married three times.  Twice before I was born and once when I was 12.  I have never seen wedding pictures of the first two wedding. I've never heard her mention those weddings.  They turned into very bad divorces that I think she doesn't care to discuss the wedding part.  I CAN tell you what she wore for the divorces.. no just kidding.  Her third wedding I didn't attend, because they went to North Dakota and got married by a judge.  They stayed over night there and then came back in the morning.  Little did I know at the time but the man she married would change my life many many years later!  At first I hated him though. Poor guy!  He somehow managed to break through my wall and now he is the only dad I really know! Okay I'm getting off track.  Easy to do, and usually I just delete those parts of my entries but I'm going to leave this today because it needs to be there.
                                   

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We have a few new particiapants here~ Welcome and enjoy the journal jar and all the wonderful people already apart of it.

Kel aka Fairylouvnchic ~  TMI
Sara aka Shedreawsanime ~   Animated Seasons
Annie aka neemom1977 ~  My Journal Jar
Meg aka Megzie212 ~  Friendship, Loyalty and Love
Fearlessgrl019 (no journal linked)
And thank you  Courtenay for being a loyal reader! 

Saturday, March 5, 2005

Links

Here are the links to all previous questions

First question
Question 2 - Games children play

Question 3 - flowers

Question 4

Question 5 - scouts anyone?
 
Question 6 ~ life with others

Question 7 ~ all alone!

Question 8 ~ Hope and dreams

Question 9 ~ Talk to me

Question 10 ~ let is snow!

Question 11 ~ Baby you can drive my car!

Question 12 ~ Attention sports fans!

Question 13 ~ 911!

Question 14 - Precious belongings

Question 15 - Our parents went to.....?
Question 16.... Hanging out.
Question 17 ~ Picnics!

Questions 18 ~ Just a word

A weekend without questions

This weekend is catch-up weekend ... we have a few new people that would like some time to catch up to us.  Also I have a lot to do this weekend. 

I thought I'd leave you with this:

Here is the list of words that the JJar people :) came up with to describe in one word how to live successfully.  When you put them all together it's quite a list. We have a great group of people here!! I have to say these answers made me reconsider what success is and helped me a lot.  If we all live by this list it would be a different world!
Thanks everyone!
Belief, Patience, Understanding, Acceptance, Honesty, Faith, Empathy, Love, Unconditional, Peace, Amirably, Common sense and honor.

Hope you all have a great weekend and I'll be back to posting questions on Monday.

                                                     graphic from  Toni's Tags

Friday, March 4, 2005

Questions 18 ~ Just a word

ONE WORD on how to live successfully....

Honesty!

**this was really hard to just use one word

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and welcome to our new particiapant  Tara  she has joined the journal jar.  I hope you enjoy this journey with us!

 

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Thursday, March 3, 2005

Question 17 ~ Picnics!

Do you like picnics?  Have you been on any picnics that stick out in your mind?

      I love picnics.  Sometimes in the summer I'll just decide to go to the beach and have a picnic.  There is something about the summer breeze as you are eating and the sun shining on you.  Sometimes they can be romantic, but it's been long long time since I've been on a romantic picnic. Usually I just drag Frankie with :)
The picnic that really stands out is the one we had on Mother's day.  Our family had all planned to meet at this one lake.  Everyone was to bring something for it.  We arrived on time, but half the family was late.  We waited and waited.  Finally we just decided to eat what we had brought.  If I remember right we had no meat, just salads.  As it turns out the other half of my family was there, but on the other side of the lake... they had only meat. They too got tired of waiting for us.  We somehow got which park we were supposed to go to mixed up.  So we had separate picnics that mother's day.  I will never forget it, I still laugh when I remember how mad my mother was that no one was showing up.
                           

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To our new participants:  Marsha & Laura hope you enjoy the journal jar also!

Wednesday, March 2, 2005

Question 16.... Hanging out.

Did you have a childhood "hangout" or "hideout"?  Describe it.

     When I was very young we use to hang out in the neighbors tree fort.  We would have sleep overs up there and play a lot of games.  I remember it was falling apart and I was forbidden by my mother to be up there, but that didn't stop me.  I loved it up there, even if there were holes in the floor.
     Then when I was a teenager we all use to go to this old abandon house.  We called it "the barn"  it wasn't a barn, I don't really remember why we called it that.  Of coarse the things we did in "the barn" were not the innocent things we did in the tree fort.  It was sort of a party place... I was a wild teenager so I'm going to leave it at that.  The windows were all broken out. The walls had wholes in them and spray paint on them. It was a mess and each year it got worse and worse until they finally torn it down.  But we all remember that place fondly.
     After that was torn down, we moved our group to this old abandon building farther away, found out later on it use to be a state mental hospital.  Which of coarse made it more appealing... what can I say we were freaks.  Then one night we heard this howling (I'm sure it was a dog) but when we told this story it was a ghost lol. 
     As an adult I've driving past that place and it does look spooky.  The teenagers around there would dare each other to go into that at night.  One night someone set that place on fire... I'm not sure if it was an accident or on purpose.  Either way it's gone. 

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to  Meangirl glad you joined us!

Tuesday, March 1, 2005

Question 15 - Our parents went to.....?

What church jobs have your parents had?  What do you remember about your parents and church?

  It's funny because I just said something about this the other day.  My dad, who was a raging drunk (not my "step dad") wouldn't step foot in a church, not even for my wedding.  My mother on the other hand went... but only when she couldn't get out of it.  Somehow every Sunday as my Grandmother would come to pick us up for Church, my Mom came down with a headache, flu, toothache, anything that would get her out of going.  So my parents held no church jobs.  And they hardly went to church. They would preach about being good following the 10 commandments, but did not lead by example. My grandmother (Taresa) was the biggest spiritual influence on me.

Welcome to the new participants:  Popcorngirl1224, Baabyblueeyes, and Bubbles! Hope you enjoy the jar.

On a personal note: Lets all send our good thoughts and prayers to Kel so that she may be back soon!  Luv and miss you Kel

 

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