Friday, April 1, 2005

Question 28 ~ living differently

If you could live your life over, what would you do differently?

I considered all the "what if's" in my life.  It's no secret I've had some really awful things happen to me.  From the abuse as a child (which I could do nothing about) to being married to a crazy abusive man, who abused me in every way shape and form.  To our homelessness, losing babies, wild teen years of constant parties and guys, not getting help for my bipolar when I knew I should, the list goes on.  I am looking back at this and thought, it's all a chain reaction though.  What I went through has made me the person I am today.  Somedays I don't like me.  Most days I do.  I may not like a lot of things in my life right now.  I may not always be happy with my behavior or circumstances but over all I am happy with me. I'm learning that I'm a strong woman, I'm caring, loving, and funny.. and dang it people like me :)   So if I were to change even one thing, I truly believe that would change who I have become because everything was a step to who I am now.  In order to have become ME, I had to go through the pain. So in the end my answer then is nothing. Am am who I am..... 

                 

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25 comments:

Anonymous said...

Wow, that's a loaded question!  I would have taken better care of my health, listened to my parents more, went to college, spent more time with my grandparents, not been in such a rush to get married the first time, chosen my friends more carefully, and become more involved with school activities.  That's about it in a nutshell.  I am limited to only so many characters here!  LOL!  Hugs, Sheila

Anonymous said...

What you have said, sums it all up for me, though having lived through different circumstances, my experiences have made `me`.  Perhaps I would have worked harder at school instead of wasting my educational time.  But really I`m more or less happy with my life!  :-)   Sandra xxx

Anonymous said...

If you could live your life over, what would you do differently?
Find out @ my Journal :) I would like to start participating today thank you!

http://journals.aol.com/hellzhotlilangl/ThePathofMyLife

Anonymous said...

I haven't been this introspective in a long time!
http://journals.aol.com/gailmb/Classyof68/entries/1366

Anonymous said...

great answer.  I feel pretty much the same way.  I may have made some changes though, the ones that hurt other people.  I think I would choose to make that change.  Maybe done more for the good, what am I talking about, it's not too late, I can still do good things.

Derek

Anonymous said...

it's posted .......Diane


Anonymous said...

Your insight is beautiful.
I agree 100% .
The pain I lived through in my childhood made me what I am today.
It goes back to what I love to say:
"That which does not kill us, makes us stronger"

Anonymous said...

I would not be so judgemental of people because of gossip.. or other peoples comments. I would take the time to get to know the person and form my own opinion of them from my own experience with them.

Anonymous said...

well Id love to say my dad molesting me ,I would of loved not for that to happen and the rapes and my mother not beating me,
I have a huge list .but
I guess I wouldnt change any of it for then if I did I never would of known my children .
and I would do it all over for them.

Anonymous said...

I absolutely agree......we all make mistakes(I have for certain) but it`s the journey that makes us what we are, and help us see what we wanna become!

Anonymous said...

New to this journal-love this entry-I would never change my childhood,even though it wasn't ideal. I would not change my life but I think if I could I would change certain decisions or choices I have made in the past-in hindsight-but I agree 100% I am who I am because of everything-good and bad.http://journals.aol.com/jbenjack/MomentsinMyLife/

Anonymous said...

THIS IS GOING TO SOUND LIKE I'M GIVING 2 ANSWERS BUT THIS IS HOW I FEEL SO I'M GOING TO SAY I WOULD NOT GO ON THE FAMILY TRIP THAT KILLED MY HUSBAND AND GRANDSON BUT THAT IS SELFISH FOR MY FAITH TELLS ME THEY ARE IN HEAVEN SO I WOULD HAVE TO BRING THEM AWAY FROM HEAVEN AND I WOULDN'T REALLY DO THAT IN REALITY. THE ONE THING I WOULD CHANGE IS BEFORE THEIR DEATH I WOULD MAKE SURE WE DIDN'T SAY WHEN HE RETIRES OR WHEN HIS BUSINESS WASN'T WORRYING US OR EVEN HAVE WHEN THIS OR THAT HAPPENED IN OUR THOUGHTS. NOW I KNOW IT'S NOT WHEN ANYTHING HAPPENS IT'S THE EXACT MOMENT YOUR IN THAT'S IMPORTANT. THE PRESENT AND WHAT YOU DO WITH IT, THAT'S THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN ALL OF OUR LIVES. OTHER THAN THAT I WOULD NOT CHANGE A THING JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE EVERYTHING MAKES ME WHO I AM. I STARTED ANOTHER JOURNAL THAT I LIKE THE LOOKS OF BETTER SO COME ON OVER AND VISIT

Anonymous said...

Okay, I plan on doing this but, in a minute (I'm combining entries again so the next one'll be in that entry too). I really admire you. I don't know if I could say that(actually, I do know. I can't. I already know at least one thing I'm putting in my entry). There is a plan to everything (I've come to learn that) but I can't help but regret doing somethings and not doing others. Congratulations on reaching that place where you can not want to change your past.
Vickey

Anonymous said...

WELL SAID! COURTENAYMPHELAN

Anonymous said...

i too wouldnt do anything different- the many mistakes ive made have taught me so much- and the worse the mistake, the bigger the lesson learned- sometimes hard to swallow though. there have been many people ive hurt along the way. im sorry for the many people ive hurt- if i could id take back those hurtful words or deeds. thank god each day is a fresh start!!

Anonymous said...

I agree with you, I would not be the person I am today without all my past experiences/choices. However, I do wish I would have been a little more understanding of and loving toward my mom. I am trying to make up for that now.

Anonymous said...

Yes, I am hopelessly behind on your journal jar.  But, on this question, like you, I feel that the journey we travel in life, makes us who we are.  Some things you can't change.  I am bipolar, too.  And all those things that come with it...But still, I am really beginning to accept myself, and my life.  So, I wouldn't change anything.  Not even my mom.

Anonymous said...

There has been insanity, misery, etc in my life from birth on but I wouldn't and couldn't as I like you wouldn't be me if I did.  I love my jacked up life, lol.

Anonymous said...

http://journals.aol.com/unicornsteph80/Welcometomylife/entries/347

Anonymous said...

My life is about the journey, not the destination.  

Don't get me wrong, life has not been easy, but....

Anonymous said...

Not much.
Lori
http://journals.aol.com/helmswondermom/LorisJournalJar/entries/357

Anonymous said...

http://journals.aol.com/danielled1/DaniellesJournalJar/entries/653
~Danielle

Anonymous said...

http://journals.aol.com/quartrlyfecrysis/andthensome/entries/306

xoxo~Bernadette

Anonymous said...

man, I have some serious catching up to do!!!  here's this answer...
http://journals.aol.com/neemom1977/MyJournalJar/entries/1320

Annie =)

Anonymous said...

http://journals.aol.com/devilletteinme/the-devilettes-journal-jar/entries/2006/11/18/re-do/551