Question 133 ~ Fear

What are you frightened of and why?

Well I figured I'd pull a thought provoking question out today... was I wrong LOL.

What am I frightened of?  Hmm I'd like to say nothing because most of the things I fear aren't rational. I've lived a life full of bad stuff (and good) but I made it through all the bad so of all the horrors in my past how can one be frightened of anything.  Well I am. 

I'm afraid of fire.. I always think I smell smoke.. when I used to smoke I would empty my ash trays in a coffee can then the next day transfer them to yet another coffee can before they could go into the garbage.  When I was little my Bio. father (not the one I usually speak of) fell asleep drunk with a cigarette in his hand. I was already in bed.  I remember it was during the time when I was to be protected (from knowing just about anything that went on around my home)  So what I remember most is my brother calmly picking me up out of bed and saying "we're going to go have a sleep over at the neighbors"  I was half asleep so I didn't question why would he be waking me for a sleep over... I remember then he grabbed my two favorite stuffed animals and outside we went... I was over her shoulder and when I looked back at our house all I could see in the basement windows was flames.  I was also involved in another fire at an apartment complex I lived at. It was in the unit above me but next door.  The fire went fast and the hall way upstairs was engulfed in flames.  It was very scary.  I always think that would be the worse way to die.. being burned to death.. painful and slow. I've since learned otherwise.. there IS a worse way to go.

I'm also frightened by anything that crawls (besides ants and babies) spiders freak me out... any creepy crawly bug.

I used to watch America's Most Wanted and there was the BK killer and I was frightened of the dark, outside and my closet when he was on the loose.  Naturally I have my friend to blame for that.. we'd have late night phone calls and I would say something like I hear noises outside... he'd say "it's BK!" (We watch AMW together over the phone so he knew that man freaked me out.

I guess the most thing that frightens me is death... not so much death but dying.  Will there be pain? Will I feel lonely? Is there anything after it. Yep fear of what comes next after this life... cuz' there has to be something!

Okay this was a horrible question to answer.. brought bad thoughts into my happy mind today!!  Normally I try and find some humor in these types of questions but my mind is completely drawing a blank... So I'll end with this:

"Fear grows in darkness; if you think there's a bogeyman around, turn on the light."
                                                  ~Dorothy Thompson

                      

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