The Journal Jar

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Question 102 ~ Fantasy lol

What do you fantasize about being or doing?

Well I'm not getting into SOME of those fantasies lol. I do "dream" about being healthy... having a better place to live and getting that job!! I don't care if I go back to what I was doing for work or not.. I just want to be able to work again. Anything would be better then what I'm doing now.

I am sick of Dr's and all that so I really do dream of being well. Growing up with my children (hehehe) and moving to AZ, which is in the works. However, I'm the one dragging my butt about it. It's such a big change and I'm not good with change.

I have to say if I pulled this question out before my long absence I would have said simply ALIVE!

Lots of other hopes, dreams, and wishes. But those I need to keep private for now, don't want to jinx it!

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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Question 101

What color was your house as a child? Your Bedroom? Describe your room.

Love this one. We moved around so much when I was a kid I can't say what color my house was as there were too many of them. We moved at least once a year and one year we moved twice. And then there is the whole "lost years" where I can't remember much of anything. I've accepted that but some of these questions make me wonder WHY can't I even remember a color of a house.

We did stay at one place for a few years but I'm stump about the color, I think it was either white or gray. My room was always white, until my mom married my step dad and they bought the house they now live in, I was 13 at the time and we painted it (much to my mother's disliking) a dark blue. They can't paint over it they say it's too dark! So to this day it's about the same color. They have repainted it but still blue and still dark.

My room was always a mess.. when I shared a room with my sister she hated it. I wasn't a pig like F is now, but I did leave clothes on the floor.. toys all over the place. When I had my own room, at first I was neat... after all I wanted to show my mom it was my sister who was the messy one lol. But my social life got in the way of the room cleaning and there was the mess again. No toys this time, but books, clothing, music, makeup. Girl stuff all over. Once in a great while my mother would make me clean it... other then that it was SHUT YOUR DOOR! lol. Now I'm a total clean freak. Maybe there IS hope for F yet!

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Tuesday, November 14, 2006

And here I am... where are you?

Hi,

Well it has been a very long time since I've written here. I guess so since I was nominated for Most Missed Journal. Which I thank everyone that voted for this journal. Thing that got me was I didn't realize this journal would be missed that much... at least not enough to get the nomination. So I better get my butt back to it.

Thing is I just can't seem to start a "new" thing in the middle of a week. Yes, I know it's only Tuesday lmao. I will start to break old habits by posting tomorrow! Middle of the week beginning.

Naturally though I am going to not post on Saturdays or Sundays.

See you tomorrow.

Missed you all
Much love,

Promise

Wednesday, June 7, 2006

Question 100

What is your secret to good health?

Well, oddly enough I don't have one. And when I first pulled this question from the jar I laughed. My health sucks as everyone knows... although it could be worse. So I am grateful for everyday.

I'd have to say water is most important to me, my medications and of coarse my drs. There is no secret there.

Can't believe we are at question 100 already! Woohoo. Took me more then 100 days though.

Monday, June 5, 2006

Question 99

What are your favorite hobbies? What have you made or accomplished with them?

I have many hobbies but just not enough time to enjoy them as I used to.

I write poems and that is a hobby yet therapy for me. I get a lot out when I write them.

I love to paint... I paint abstract mostly, the colors seem to tell the story I'm trying to tell.

I also love to cook and bake. Of coarse that is the hobby of mine that thrills my family the most. They benefit from that more then I do. I don't like to eat a lot. Also I hate the clean up. If only I had someone to constantly clean up after me I would cook and bake all day long.

My computer is a hobby, I do so many things on it.... and lastly the Sims.. That's a big "hobby" or I should say addiction. I lose track of time when I'm playing the Sims.

Also I collect unicorns.. anything with a unicorn, key chains, plaques, figures, pictures... I sometimes just go drive around to anywhere and look in all the shops along the way to find something new to add to my collection.

As far as what I've accomplished from my hobbies, well the most important part is I've released a lot of emotions in them instead of at other's or myself. I have had a few of my poems published in various places. Right now I'm working on putting them all together in a book, and hopefully I will be able to have it published someday. One of my poems has been turned into a song by a local band.. that was pretty cool. Someday if they become famous maybe I'll be listening to the radio and say "OMG that's my poem!!" lol.

Friday, June 2, 2006

Question 98

What special things did you do with your mother?

I wasn't going to post today, something has happened and I'm in a very upset mood... want to know about that you can visit my blog (I'll give link after this) but I think maybe getting my mind off that stuff is what I need. I'm glad this isn't a pet question today though. (fake laugh)

Normally mother/father questions bother me. But I spent most of the day with my mother. And she was very nice today. My mother and I have such and up and down relationship. But that's a whole different thing so I shouldn't be getting into that here.

My mom and I really didn't spend much time doing "special" things when I was growing up. My sister and I spent most of our time together doing sister things. But a few times that I remember (my childhood is foggy and I have gaps in my memories) my sister and I used to put on little plays mostly involving me being a unicorn (HAHA) and my mother would come outside and watch our plays. Since my mother was sort of distant with that stuff it was nice when she'd watch and look proud of our stupid little plays. She also always had an animal hospital for my poor stuffed dogs and cats that my brother's would rip ears, tails and eyes off. She would pretend to rush them to the hospital (her sewing room) even making the siren sound. Then she would bring them back after the "dr" had operated on them.

We also played board games but that was more of a family thing then a mother and me thing.

Now we do the mother/daughter game day. We shop and once in awhile I will go with her on her casino trips. I never have extra money to gamble but she usually gives me some to play, or we will play on the same slot machine... this probably doesn't sound fun but it actually is, we take turns pulling the handle and even if we win a buck we woot and holler like we've won big. My mother can be fun and funny. Even though there are times she gets on my nerves looking at her today and thinking back she means more to me then I really realized. So special things sometimes are just sitting and talking and getting along... a hug when you leave... a smile when she knows exactly how I'm feeling. Special can be anything you want it to be.

Now if you want here's my blogger link: Promise's Tiger

Thursday, June 1, 2006

Question 97 ~ Writing....

Do you like to write letters? Are you a good writer? Who do you correspond with?

Wow, Guess today's question is a three part question. I do enjoy writing letters most of the time. There are times when I get behind and it seems like so much has happened and I don't feel like writing all that much so I put it off. Also sometimes it seems I have so little to say then I suddenly realize that the person that wrote me wrote me three months ago and you'd think I'd have something worthwhile to write about. I guess at those times, because I enjoy writing poetry and journaling I just don't want my passion to turn into a chore.

As for if I'm a good writer or not.. I'd say my poems are good, I like them, been told they are great (although some people don't get them). It took me many years to even allow anyone to see them... I just pour my thoughts, heart and soul into them and for so long I didn't want people to know that part of me.. I would never imagined a few years ago, that I would actually have a lot of my poems on the internet for the world to see. Seems I've come a long way.

I write a few people, an old friend from school, a girl I used to live with, and I have two pen pals whom I've never met. One is a solider, the other I got off a pen pal site. Those are usually the letters that pile up and I have to answer three or four at a time. So for me when I'm in the mood I love it... otherwise I just don't bother.